1 month in <3

Wow. I can’t believe my baby boy is one month old. I feel like I literally just pushed him out!!

🥹🧿

I’ve felt such overwhelming joy welcoming Supreme into my life. Remember when I mentioned I was curious how he was going to shape me in my last post? Love. That’s what he’s here to give me more of. My love has flowed endlessly since he’s arrived. I can’t put into words the way he makes me feel and how much I’ve grown mentally since his arrival.

I’m so grateful that I’m here, able to care for him. I’m exclusively pumping, and I can’t thank God enough for my supply. This was something I really wanted to be able to do for Supreme, because with Sincere, I struggled a lot. My supply just wasn’t enough, and his demand was way too high for me to keep up with. I wasn’t able to provide for him the way I wanted to and it was heartbreaking. It was also a very different time in my life 4 years ago. The amount of stress was insane, and I wasn’t as strong mentally as I am now. This pregnancy I really trained my mind, got closer to God, and applied a lot from what I learned with my previous experience.

It’s easy to feel mom guilt, especially when you can’t do something you wanted to do so badly for your children. This time around before Supreme came, I told myself I would try my best, because that is good enough. I’m here to tell you it’s okay if you can’t do something you set out to do. Taking care of your baby is ENOUGH. A fed baby is ENOUGH, whether it’s breast milk, formula, or a combo of both. Moms put so much pressure on themselves, and it only hurts us. My goal is to provide breast milk for 6 months, but if I can’t, then I can’t, and I’m mentally prepared to accept that. One month down, 5 more to go. I even bought a deep freezer, and currently have 400+ oz of milk stored 🥹. GOD IS GOOD!

I’ve spent this first month trying to adjust to Supreme’s schedule (which babyyyy, it’s TOUGH). My boy gives me hell from 1 am - 4 am. He be UP UP 🫠. He also loves to be carried, and his feeding schedule is like clockwork! Don’t get me started on his cry! This boy has such a strong cry! He don’t play no games! That’s that Aries energy 🤣. I know that I’m built for this, I just have to adjust a bit to a new routine.

Aside from taking care of baby boy, I’ve been doing my best to take care of myself as well. Little things like taking a shower, fixing my hair, putting on fresh pajamas every day, HELPS. I even go out for little errands and walks, just to stay active and clear my mind. I just got my nails, toes and brows done the other day which helped a lot! You look good, you feel good. Ya’ll know I love to shop, so ya girl been doing that too! Maybe I’ll do a post about my recent pick ups 😉.

I’ve also slowly, but surely, been getting back into selling. I’m not trying to get back to old ways, but more like embracing the new. I can’t lie, I love it here. This has been my best postpartum experience yet, and I’m so glad. I’m not letting postpartum get to me this time! It’s all in the mind! I spent my whole pregnancy preparing for this, and I’m proud of me!

Everyone’s postpartum journey is different, and even though things are going well for me right now, it could take a turn! Even so, I feel stronger than ever and ready to tackle any and everything that comes my way. I feel extremely blessed and highly favored to be a momma of 3. The best thing God ever did for me was make me a mom! Ladies, train your mind. YOU ARE STRONG. YOU ARE GREAT. YOU ARE ABLE!

♥️ ya.

msgsfromyou